Friday, September 24, 2010

So far, this is the oldest I've ever been.

   I turned thirty this year. It's a pretty big deal to enter a new decade for only the third time in your life. I always wonder why people make such a big deal over getting older, but Danny says it's not getting older they mind. It's looking older. Well, I'm not quite that vain, and I say better to get old than die young! I have to say, I love being thirty! I was a little afraid of it. So many people say things about getting older. "Oh, just wait until you're thirty. Then you will..." blah blah blah. They said the same thing about getting married. And do you know what? They're wrong! So, in honor of all my new laugh lines and wrinkles, here are a few things I like about getting older. (And just to keep it from being too boring, interspersed are some more pictures Meggie took of our family. We are a verry challenging family to get good pics of, since half the time we are just trying to get the kids to hold still! Thank you Megan for helping us to get some good pictures. It's a miracle!!)

(Alex kills me in this one and another one. He just looks like he is such an angel and all perfection. But we know what he was doing while we were trying to take pictures. Oh yes, we know. )
1. You are so much more comfortable with yourself. I feel like I know myself better than ever and can trust myself. In certain areas. I've had time to see how I react to different things and in different settings, and though I will always be a work in progress, I feel okay about who I am.

2. I'm not intimidated by people. I never feel nervous or worry about what they will think. Just imagine what I will be like when I'm 50! I'll probably just walk around naked and tell people to get over it.


(I loove the pics she got of Tristan. I just wish, oh wish, that we had gotten some individuals of Lainey that day, too! )
3. I've been married for 11 years now, and I love it! I was always so afraid of what it would be like when you are in the midst of raising your kids and your crazy lives, and I can easily say, this is the most fun we have had so far! We've loved every different part of our lives together, but we just love having these crazy kids and all the funny things they do and say. We love having kids old enough to talk to and do fun things with and to teach funny things to. And we know each other so much better. We rarely disagree, and when we do we get over it quickly. We're still sometimes grumpy or tired, but now we know that's what it is. When you are newly married every time something weird happens, you think, "Oh no! We're never going to be happy together!" I don't worry about that now.

4. I feel more confident as a parent. I don't second guess everything I do and worry that I am warping my children. Now I know that I am warping them, and I take pleasure in it! Haha, only joking. I know they are pretty much who they are, and I'm okay with that. I can't change who they intrinsically are, for better or worse.  And we have developed a sense of family identity, who we are as a family together. We are happy, outgoing, crazy, willing to let the house get messy for some fun or to do things together, and find ourselves to be the best things to laugh at.

5. It just feels nice to have thirty years under my belt, and still be myself. When I was little I would worry that the grown-up me would be totally different from who I was then. But I'm pretty much the same person.

6. I can still do the splits. And lots of other weird stuff. I still hang upside-down on the monkey bars and read my books in the tree sometimes and can still do a backbend and stand up out of it. I'm pretty proud of that.

Ummm.. there are lots of other things I like about getting older, but a lot of it is just about becoming comfortable with who I am and accepting myself, which in turn allows me to accept others as they are.  I don't mean this post to sound like I am bragging on myself, I just thought it was worth mentioning that so far, getting older is a-okay with me. I thought that might be reassuring to someone out there. Then again, two of the four people who read this are older than me, so I guess you don't need to be told!!
 
  On a last note, when I turned 30 Danny gave me a big kiss and said, "I've never kissed a thirty year-old before." I said, "I have. It's not that great." Hehehe.....

This is the other picture where Alex looks like he is pure angel. Do you see that sweet face?! No one else looks that great, but he looks like he should have a halo around his head.

6 comments:

Club Jolley said...

Oh I loved everything you wrote! I wish so badly that you would write a book, lots of people would love to read all of your hilarious insights and stories. Not to mention, you would make money basically just doing something you enjoy. So, the family pictures are sooo nice, you look so pretty and fit, I really hope I look like you when I'm thirty. This post was reassuring to me; I worry about what I'll look like when I"m older all the time! I just don't want to feel yucky and out of shape and not be in tune with my body (in fact, I kind of feel like that right now!). We all have our ups and downs, but you guys are such good examples of being a team and supporting each other in anything.
Oh, Alex's face, so cute! And Tristan's face in the last picture, there's something really funny about it too.
Thank you for writing and telling me that maybe getting old isn't going to be scary! :)

Emme said...

can i just say that you are soooo beautiful! seriously. i hope i look half as good as you someday. i've always looked forward to being older my whole life, but now that i actually am an adult and getting older, well, it's a little scary! so thanks for you post:) i love that you love your age. it's sad that so many people hate getting old.
your family photos are wonderful! you have such adorable children, and yes, alex looks like he should have a halo around his head haha.
i'm so impressed that you can do the splits and all that! every summer my mom would take us to a dam where we'd swim and she would always jump right in and swim with us even in her 50's. she felt a little embarrassed though because all the other moms sat on the beach under an umbrella reading or something. but we reassured her that she was much cooler than them haha. that's great that you're so in shape, i'm sure it helps you keep up with your kids!

Noodle said...

What a wonderful post, and I totally agree with you about getting older. I think the way you live has so much to do with how life shapes you. No matter what life hands you, your experience of it is so self-determined. Mostly, it's based on faith in Heavenly Father.
So, congratulations on being the oldest woman Danny's ever kissed!
(Your reply to him made me smile :)
These pictures are great! Megan did a fantastic job, and, of course, you all are very photogenic. [grin]
Your children ALL look like angels, btw, but Alex is totally convincing!

Noodle said...

PS I can't wait to see you running around naked (like you did as a toddler, haha) and telling people to get over it!

MegJill said...

I get so happy when you post!!! I don't know WHAT you are doing with your time that you can't blog more. I mean, you only have 4 kids and a house and husband and everyone else to stops by or moves in the take care of. :)
I'm glad you like the pictures! Alex is so funny, and this truly shows that pictures can be deceiving! So when you see pictures of celebrities all happy and smiley, now you know it is all fake! They just want the M&M's the photographer offered if they look smile.
LOVE what you said to Danny about the kissing a 30 year old!

MegJill said...

P.S.
Tristan really got the best light. We needed more great light that night!!!