This will be short, but I was just talking to Mommy tonight and sharing some different experiences we've had. After we were done talking, I was just struck so much by how beautiful and wonderful life is. Which was ironic, since we were mostly talking about being okay with dying.
But I don't just mean life, like on this earth, but "life", that spark within us. Our souls, if you will. And I believe so strongly that that goes far beyond this earthly experience.
And now with Haley and Linda having their babies, I feel so excited for these new people to get to come to Earth, and see all its wonderful things. I know, there are a lot of sad things, but there are so many beautiful things. I want so much to enjoy those things while I am here. At the end of the Ferris wheel ride, I don't want to realize that I spent the whole ride trying to get a piece of gum off the bottom of my shoe.
So, as we think about and deal with the thought of Mommy dying, we are also celebrating the new lives coming onto this Earth! And all of those who have lived their lives with their heads up and looking at all the beautiful things around them, would want us to celebrate their lives, too.
So, I am grateful for the gift of my body and my health. I am grateful to have those I love around me. But no matter what happens, I am grateful to have this chance to live.
And now I will send this out into the ether, so that someday when I wonder what I am doing here, maybe I can read this again and remember. That's a good thing.
P.S. I tried to add some inspiring photos, but I can't figure out how to add images from the web! Sorry- you'll just have to use your imagination, darn it!
4 comments:
Your ferris wheel/gum-on-the-shoe analogy is a great one for me to remember. :) And I don't plan on dying soon, btw, but death is a part of life, so it's sometimes good to remember to cherish each moment we have with each other. Even a child could be suddenly gone. All you can do is what you've said: LIVE, really live, like Doc Holliday told Wyatt to in Tombstone. He said, "Live for me, Wyatt," I believe. He didn't want Wyatt to live with the regret he had, perhaps.
That scene always makes me cry, because the sentiments are believable and true-to-life, even though that scene is fictional.
Thank you for expressing these things so well.
Squishing Your Head in My Warm Embrace,
Your Moodle
Yippee for living life! I often wonder what I am doing, especially on those days when it feels like nothing gets accomplished but that we lived another day. I guess that is a pretty big one though!
I'm so glad Moodle is alive to be with us some more, even though we are far away and not physically with her. And it is sooo exciting that the new babies are coming! Can't wait to meet them and see their personalities emerge.
I also loved the analogy of the ferris wheel/gum on the shoe. I even quoted it on my group discussion for one of my online classes. :) I think that when someone is sick (like Dallin this week) or in the hospital (like Moodle this week) then we suddenly realize that I don't even CARE what the house looks like or what clothes I'm wearing! It puts everything in perspective. So thanks for reminding me of that. I need to be reminded a lot, I think. I am excited to see the new babies too! Especially now that we're getting closer and closer to the due dates! Yippeeee!
Mel-
You're so amazing! I was looking over your blog and remembering all the times in young womens when we got to hang out. I would always think to myself, 'I LOVE Melinda's life.' And I seriously still do! I think you and your family are just stellar. You definitely give me someone to want to be.
And by the way, your boys are ADORABLE!
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